Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those mourn-Romans 12:15
A couple months ago, I sat in my prayer chair for my morning devotional time which includes a time of prayer and reading scriptures and devotionals. I was starting to pray when I was overwhelmed with sorrow and allowed my tears to fall. This entire year has been tough. The previous few weeks have been difficult. I noticed that I had tried to put aside my emotions and pray through it. That morning, I remembered I was in the presence of my heavenly father who not only created me but loves me unconditionally I cried. I allowed myself to cry and feel all my feelings of sorrow, disappointment, anger, confusion, sadness and more. It felt great just to sit and cry. I am a person who believes it is healthy to express your emotions and I am not ashamed of my tears. As a Nigerian-American woman, I had felt weary all year and it was great to have an honest moment.
All of us have feelings that are mixed right now. Our feelings are for many reasons. Whatever the reason, I want to encourage you to allow yourself to cry and be honest. This quarantined reality does not mean that we are no longer human beings who do not have feelings. Yes, we may have more time but our lives are sanitized. We can no longer shake hands and cry together. We cannot gather with people outside our homes. We must stay masked up and socially distant in a time when we need one another the most for our health safety. I am thankful for technology that allows us to connect using video, texts and phone calls. Social media is awesome because we can connect with people around the world. At the end of the day, we can be honest and cry.
May God cover and bless you as you lament, cry and do what you need to have an intimate and special moment with God.