I am not even sure how to start this letter other than to say, What in the world? In December 2019, I was so hopeful with starting a new decade with a clean slate. I purged people, places and things that were hindering my progress. January 2020 arrived and shortly I realized this year was going to be different. My favorite basketball player, Kobe Bryant, dies suddenly with his precious daughter Gigi and other many precious souls. Our nation and world united in grief. We learned to love one another more deeply.
Then, I started to hear rumors about a disease called, COVID-19. I thought this disease would come and go quickly. Then our entire world went into lockdown and a mandatory pause. Everyone’s normal life became full of securing hand sanitizer and social distancing. Milestones had to be celebrated virtually. There was disappointment and anger amid celebration. School and work is being done remotely. Vacations are not an option right now. As the weather gets nicer, I am reminded of how my normal doesn’t exist now. Many souls including mine have become weary.
Then my heart was not prepared for a new round of unarmed African-Americans dying. Viral videos showed the last moments of Ahmaud Arbery and George Floyd’s lives. Breona Taylor, Sean Reed and countless others were murdered. Our fragile nation became very divided over the unraveling of systematic racism. Many people more people we loved and admired passed away including Civil rights icons C.T. Vivian and Congressman John Lewis and Baltimore Superfan Mo Gaba, Singer and Songwriter Bill Withers and TV Icon Regis Philbin.
However, I believe with my entire soul that my tears and heartbreak are not in vain. I believe that despite the division and heartbreak that is raging, things are going to get better. I believe healing will start. I believe uncomfortable conversations are needed right now to start the process of life long change for everyone. The beauty of this moment is that there is so much unity and love that is being poured out and displayed around the world. This year is not over yet. Things will get better. So, I am standing in hope and love. I am trusting that things will get better. I cannot wait to write another letter later this year.
Standing in faith,