He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly[a] with your God.”-Micah 6:8
On Tuesday, it started out as a normal day, but it ended on a heartbreaking note. I heard earlier in the day about George Floyd and Amy Cooper. I tried to move along with my day, but I felt something snap in my spirit. I felt disappointed, heartbroken, confused, sad and upset all at the same time. I even had to give myself grace to step away and feel my emotions. Then, I had a beautiful and encouraging Twitter exchange with devoted Christian wife, mother, musician and leader, Jamie Grace. This young woman really made her feelings known in a beautiful, honest and transparent way. I was able to exhale while feeling encouraged. I also saw the tweets of other people I admire and adore who also encouraged me.
I submitted everything to God. I love the fact that God will never discard or dismiss my feelings because I am a Nigerian-American woman. He will never tell me to be quiet or pray through it. He will never accuse me of being dramatic or out of my mind. He will never be silent when I need him the most. He will walk with me through my heartbreak. He will allow me space to cry and ask questions. He will love me unconditionally. He sent Jesus to be murdered for my past, present and future sins. Hebrews 4:15 says, “This High Priest of ours understands our weaknesses, for he faced all of the same testings we do, yet he did not sin.”
I have been sitting a little too comfortably on the sidelines watching things pass me by while harboring heartbreak and pain. I realize now that God has entrusted me with a purpose and calling to speak and write. I cannot be afraid to walk out my calling. Earlier this week I tweeted the following, “My heart hurts today. I thought this during pandemic we could pause on the things that usually divide us. I have been heartbreakingly wrong. God, I pray for all us to have open eyes and hearts to being agents of love, peace and understanding. If you have a platform, use it.” I want to thank everyone who has said something. All of us are a part of the solution. Please do not stay silent. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. once said, “Darkness cannot drive our darkness. Only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate. Only love can do that.”